Such a weird day yesterday…
It was a great lesson to me so in keeping with my promise to be here more I wanted to share it with you.
My puppy was still recovering from surgery so the only way he was happy and calm was sitting next to me which put me on the couch. Not the best for fibro, not the best for weight loss. but totally the best choice for my little friend…ehh, it happens.
This also means I was away from my trusty white board reminder calendar of what sort of day and week I aim to have. It is such a simple thing that yields great benefits. Honestly it takes me longer to pick out what color markers to use–color is very important to me–than it does to actually write out my plans and goals.
This week I am on Easy Cycle (Chris Powell’s Carb Cycling) to accommodate a busy week.
I cancelled all my plans to stay home with Petey so that meant my lunch reward meal didn’t happen. I bought tons of fruit (and veggies) on Monday so adding extra carbs were not a problem.
Then…my guys left a bag of Doritos on the table. An open bag of chips…WHY??? Without thinking I grabbed one every time I walked by. When I finally realized what I was doing, I stopped but the battle of “It’s Tuesday…you already blew it,” and worse.
I am ashamed to say I was not very nice to myself but I stopped the negative self-talk which was harder than walking away from the Doritos.
By dinner time, my hubs had come home with food poisoning so I decided not to cook since we have plenty of leftovers.
The pup snuggled with hubs so I was “free” so I started cleaning instead of coming to the computer.
I ate a decent dinner, watched/listened to The Biggest Loser, to look for inspiration, and then came to record the rest of my day.
I noticed my white board.
How can I not? It is right in my peripheral vision every moment I am at the computer. It is why I lives in that spot. I only need to barely move my eyes to bring it into full focus
After I sat down, I made the miniscule movement needed to bring the board into full focus.
For each day of the week, I write LC or HC on each day to help avoid confusion but since I am on Easy Cycle this week I also put a star next to the HC for yesterday.
I stared at that little pink star.
Then my day came into full focus.
My whole day turned upside down and the worst thing that happened was maybe 15 chips.
“Well, whattaya know,” I thought.
Okay, I did beat myself up in the moment and that is never good. However, as I stared at that star I realized those chips replaced the lunch out….And…..for LESS calories. It’s not often you can say that, right!
I was still feeling bad about blowing my goal to keep just one promise a day this week mostly because I was too wrapped up in keeping Petey comfortable it never thought to make one. Honestly, I went to bed last night feeling a little let down while being determined to let yesterday be and not carry it over to today.
It wasn’t until this morning I realized overall my “big” promise is always to be real, record everything, learn, grow, and adjust.
I did that yesterday!
The more I thought about it the more I realized how UN-mindful I had been of my very mindful day simply because I was not having the day I thought I would.
While it was an old habit to mindlessly reach for those chips, it did not take long for my new habit to hold up a “stop” sign.
This is a perfect example of how we can be so hard on ourselves when we are really doing good things.
I am really big on dealing with ‘the truth’ about food, fibromyalgia, and THRIVING. As it turns out, in this case the truth is those 15 chips were part of my plan except my head was not turned on enough to realize it.
My old me instantly assumed I was being “bad.”
When I plugged my BodyBugg in this morning I also learned I did, in truth, hit my calorie burn target for yesterday and actually exceeded it by 8 calories.
A day of holding still more than I wanted, a day not “on my plan,” a day that felt off in every way and I still managed to move enough to not only beat but exceed my target.
“Woman, YOU NEED SOME PERSPECTIVE!”
That is where writing goals and diligent journaling forces that perspective…IF…I actually manage to read what I have written. Thankfully, I do. The writing and reviewing is part of my routine.
My “bad” day, my day where I felt like I was “failing”….was all in my attitude and that’s the truth!