The hair and makeup, the shiny hoops and the pulled together outfit; it is a total lie.
And, I am okay with being a big, fat liar.
I pulled an all nighter finishing probably one of the toughest projects of my life. I did not crawl into bed until just after 4 a.m. I was back awake by 8 a.m. and when I finally decided I was awake enough to shower I ended up taking a 45-minute nap instead.
I finally got that shower and pulled my hair up and did some light makeup to resemble a human before running all over town.
Honestly, I was not safe to be behind the wheel of a car.
Thankfully, I made it home safely and promptly crashed on the couch for another slightly longer nap.
Today was not fibro-induced, though I am flaring a little, but it could have easily been.
In another way I was lying every time I put food in my mouth.
Other than my coffee this morning and 1-ounce of peanuts this afternoon, my food has been fast food. Yeah, all but 150-calories, or ten percent of my total intake was full of salt.
Some days are just like that and this was one. Thankfully, in my world they are so rare that I ate more fast food today than I normally would in an entire month.
Further complicating matters, I am headed to California tomorrow afternoon so there will be more opportunities to make the best choice available from convenience foods.
In fact, I do not expect to be back on track until Monday afternoon at the soonest but I will hold to my commitment to make the best choices I can. Sometimes, when the best we can do is to do our best, our best has to be good enough.
Even with the fast food, I did NOT go over my calorie allotment for the day. Interestingly enough, those same calories I routinely eat do not feel satisfying. But, isn’t that the trap of that sort of food?
For now, I am going to try not to think about packing my tankini top to wear at the beach.
At the end of the day, I am still exhausted, my hair’s now a mess but I do not have a single bad food feeling about my day or anything which triggered it.