Man, I don’t even know where to start. I guess the best way to describe this week was a roller coaster–emotionally, physically, mentally, spiritually.
I wouldn’t necessarily call it a bad week just full. Very full.
There was a whole lot of me working on building my patience and tolerance for my body’s shenanigans. However, I also came to the realization that I’m fighting my body in an unhealthy way. I’m not ‘doing’ anything bad but I am feeling bad about what I have come to know is just part of my normal. Yes, I am referring to the bloated, puffiness that has been hanging around for weeks.
Here is where I want to stress the importance of keeping your tribe, your circle, your influences positive and solutions-focused.
As most of you know this blog started as I prepared for weight loss surgery and how I later changed my mind. As I discarded my plans, I kept one of my online weight loss surgery support groups because they are so solutions-focused.
Weight loss surgery breeds creative food solutions that really can work for anyone who is looking for nutrient dense, power-packed meals. And for anyone who thinks surgery is the ‘easy’ way out I suggest you spend some time in the world of a post-weight loss surgery patient.
Well, in that group a successful loser posted her concerns of some post surgical weight gain. She gained 12 pounds just having surgery. I was able to respond to her. I told her to be patient. I told her to keep her protein up. I told her to keep her fluids up. I told her to move as much as she was able. I told her the weight loss wasn’t real fat gain. Even though I had been telling myself all those things, I wasn’t really listening. I go through unearned weight gain several times a year when my body starts crapping out.
So I started asking myself why I wasn’t listening.
Here are my answers:
I’m tired. I’m tired of my body playing sick jokes (all pun intended) on me. I’m tired of struggling so hard. I’m tired of watching other people do what I have yet to convince my body to do (reach a healthy weight).
Then the surgery friend said, “I’m sure we’ll just look back on this and laugh.”
And what felt so good as I reassured her and listened to my own good advice suddenly became this angry moment.
She is going to recover from the temporary weight gain of surgery.
I am not. No matter what weight I am my body will randomly gain weight and I will go through this again, and again, and again. Now perhaps with time I’ll learn my body even better and find a level of control over my Hashimoto’s hypothyroidism (autoimmune disease with low thyroid) that I have yet to enjoy which will reduce or eliminate these episodes.
That’s just one turn on the roller coaster. I’ll spare you the other twists, turns, and loop-d-loops.
You’re probably thinking I had a bad week, right?
I wouldn’t call it bad. I would call it a week of growth.
I’d also call it a week for shrinking because I lost………
2.6 POUNDS THIS WEEK!!!!!!
I’m sure a good part of it is some of the water I’ve been retaining because I’m not quite as puffy. By the end of the day my ankles only look like they’re wearing doughnuts instead of inner tubes *rolls eyes*
So here’s my best advice: When you have these types of roller coaster weeks, hang on to your plan. Do your part. Put in the work. Put in the time. When your world is spinning and you’re just not sure what to do just hang on. Stick to your plan. Let your plan bring you a sense of peace and order.
Where this is my year of accountability, when I felt like a tornado on the inside this is what I did to use my plan to help me reach my goals:
As much as I was all over the place emotionally, my food was on point.
I made sure I was weighing everything.
I focused on nutrition rather than food.
I took extra steps whenever I could.
I made sure I was getting enough sleep.
I made sure I was drinking my water.
I kept reminding myself that even when my body storms out of my control I am worth the effort.And I remembered the advice of my dear friend Jerry, “Enjoy the ride.”
Hang on…roller coasters only last a few minutes…then they’re over and you move forward taking the experience with you.