Thank you for visiting my page.
This is my journey, my story to finding a healthy weight not because I need to wear a bikini but because I need to improve my health. I recently told my doctor:
“There is nothing about the body people see which describes how I care for it…It is not about caring about what others see as much as what I see…It is really difficult *this is about where the tears started* to do all of these wonderful things for my body and look in the mirror and not see a healthy weight looking back at me…Plus if you send me on one more referral and one more doctor tells me “nothing I can do for you but you will feel better if you lose weight” I am really going to snap because I am treating my body as if it is a healthy, normal weight and no one sees that especially me.”
I really realized how the vast difference between me and other formerly obese people in the summer of 2012. Yahoo ran a series of articles from people who have successfully lost over 100 pounds. Most of the losers included a typical menu before and after their weight loss. I was really struck by one woman’s admission of a typical before breakfast was an entire box of sugary cereal.
I do not even eat sugary cereal and my normal breakfasts are a protein smoothie, eggs, or oatmeal in modest quantities.
In fact, my normal menu looks a lot like her “after” menu.
On a typical day I consume about 1800 calories.
I am 5’4″ tall, 42 years old, and weigh *gulp* 276 pounds.
You do the math with any, or all, of the calculators out there and I “should” be losing weight.
I know it.
My doctor knows it.
My body…ehh, not so much.
I also exercise daily despite fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue syndrome, patellar femoralis, congenital hip dysplasia, and spinal damage in multiple locations.
I “should” be a healthy weight.
I am not.
I am going to change that.